Caroline Strawson
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Narcissistic Abuse & Blame
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At forty, I believed my life was over. I had just ended a relationship with a covert narcissist and felt he had taken the best years of my life, leaving me with nothing but a downhill journey.
However, I came to realise that I was blaming others for my feelings and was stuck in a functional freeze response. On the surface, I seemed to function normally, going through the motions of daily life and maintaining appearances. Yet, deep inside, I was grappling with trauma that I hadn't fully acknowledged or addressed.
This internal struggle left me feeling isolated and disconnected from my true self, as I had built a façade to hide my pain. It became clear that to truly heal, I needed to confront these buried emotions and take responsibility for my own healing journey.
In this episode, we will explore:
- Why we shouldn’t blame other people for how we feel
- How to break out of a functional freeze response
- Beginning to heal after a narcissistic relationship
My new book, ‘How To Heal After Narcissistic Abuse’ really is your essential guide to leading a better life and not blaming yourself for what happened in your narcissistic and abusive relationships. Where you are right now isn’t where you have to stay.
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КОМЕНТАРІ

  • @sparkle1949
    @sparkle1949 21 годину тому

    Is there a chat grow group anyone can let me know . I’m healing but 100 isolated and no one understands, not even therapist really get it.

  • @sparkle1949
    @sparkle1949 21 годину тому

    Thank you ❤❤❤❤ sooo true, esp knowing that a narc wouldn’t choose a lazy person in the first place .

  • @lanovia3838
    @lanovia3838 День тому

    you really don't need to be kidnapped or go to war to have CPTSD. Just have contact with people. This planet is hell, monsters are among us.

  • @Corina-dq2my
    @Corina-dq2my 2 дні тому

    Keep everything journaled. You need evidence. Good advice.

  • @stickyandsweetie
    @stickyandsweetie 2 дні тому

    What would be a stable communication resolution 😊

  • @cappuchina877
    @cappuchina877 2 дні тому

    When they give you the silent treatment whatever you do dont react. They want a reaction from you. They want to see you hurting. Thet feed off your pain that they caused.

  • @lavernetolove4590
    @lavernetolove4590 2 дні тому

    Therapy works wonders for me especially when going through triggering new seasons where it’s now been few and far in between. Therapy helps take that muck out and redirect the perception and how we handle it/show up in it so I guess I’m confused

  • @scottallencolorado
    @scottallencolorado 3 дні тому

    What a great video. Thank you. I was with a gal for a number of years who said all those things to me. It took me a long time to understand what was going on and it caused a lot of pain. In the comment section though, I read that saying Im sorry you're not feeling well is gaslighting? I've said that to her many times because she went so long not feeling well. Thoughts?

  • @djnquire
    @djnquire 4 дні тому

    I had so many ailments that i couldnt explain. Body pain, headaches, rashes, ED and a horrible memory

  • @Farrahlovely
    @Farrahlovely 4 дні тому

    What if your married to them you completely ignore them ?

  • @N1co777
    @N1co777 4 дні тому

    Just like you said. I stopped dealing with her and then she took my daughter from me and still smears my name after over 15 years.

  • @leojablonski2309
    @leojablonski2309 4 дні тому

    The answer ? ...Look at your prototype. Origins of hole in the soul.The rest is unconscious chemistry.

  • @bonnieromick9397
    @bonnieromick9397 4 дні тому

    You're gaslighting every victim by sssuming victim ignorance "who uses it incorrectly". Wow are you entitled to Bow/ Not. Your doubts in victims reporting accuracy gives you away. People hit by a truck know its a truck whether its a semi or a moving van. The real problem is their are too dam many narcissist s people want to deny exist. Im not like you( "like me like you)": Dont put us together you want to call a whole bunch of victims idiots. Notice everyone elses silence. Your superiority takes everyones oxygen

  • @jansen1997
    @jansen1997 4 дні тому

    Omg , I thought I was a freak with this sound sensitivity, I am almost a hermit at home now as I can’t deal with the noise of the outside world. I constantly think my friends look at me like I’m weird as I can’t tune out any sounds and startle so easily. Thank you this makes so much sense , even 4 years on from escaping narcissistic abuse.

  • @debbiemckenna5
    @debbiemckenna5 5 днів тому

    My father and Ex husband are both Narcissists. I was tested for EARLY ONSET ALTIMETERS 10 years ago I suffered with severe memory loss, stumbling, falling, fatigue and the list goes on on. I am finally getting the right help I need But 1 thing my Xhusband did was to try to turn my children against me! I have a 21yr old son that doesn’t want to have any kind of Relationship with me! I was a stay at home mom until my son was in 8th grade. We were Soooooo close. His father was jealous and told me that the kids loved me more than him. His father brain washed him so bad that he says I AM CRAZY AND TOXIC! He Doesn’t want any type of relationship with me. My 20 year old twin girls did not go against me. Thank GOD the kids are doing Very well and are not Narcissistic at all. A little Selfish but they are in college and working and doing well! I love them to death. I am soooo happy that I stayed home with them. I LOVED EVERY SECOND!But it makes me soooooo Sad that my kids suffer! KARMA IS A BITCH and my X will suffer some day soon! My fathers Karma came when he had a Stroke and his wife died. He is All by himself!and I have NO CONTACT WITH HIM !!!!

  • @MKhan-mf5gm
    @MKhan-mf5gm 5 днів тому

    You speak logic

  • @Hate24
    @Hate24 5 днів тому

    Suffered from abuse for 10 years thanks to 'family' after coming out whilst also suffering from anxiety and depression (shoutout Jehovah's Witnesses/s). It got really bad. I had some kind of attack. That front part of my brain, burned, like it was boiling out of my skull, or melting. It was agonizing. Its been 3 years since i got away. But now, i have insomnia. I can't remember things i once could. I forget things often, like sand slipping through my hand. It took art from me. Id drawn for upwsrds several years. And now its gone, all the technical and mechanical knowledge. I really want to know if i can ever recover enough to be able to draw again. Im suffering, im not good at anything else, art means everything to me and I just want it back. Is my brain ruined forever?

  • @stevesukegawa6332
    @stevesukegawa6332 7 днів тому

    WHY ONLY FOR WOMEN MEN GO THRU IT AS WELL

  • @kimberlywebberslemongrasss5175
    @kimberlywebberslemongrasss5175 7 днів тому

    I’m struggling with feelings like I’m doing something that is keeping me from healing. Every time I hear “it’s going to take time” I just want to scream. 🥹 I was married to someone who I believe suffers from narcissism for 26+ years. I’ve heard the longer someone has been in an abusive relationship the longer it takes to heal. This is not encouraging.

  • @hipstersister4612
    @hipstersister4612 7 днів тому

    I have been gone 2.5 months after a 35 years marriage with an extremely abusive NPD. I had my few weeks of adrenaline rush but just seen to be getting more and more depressed. Feel so hopeless. They really do steal everything including and even afterwards.

    • @howdydocowgirlcowgirl181
      @howdydocowgirlcowgirl181 День тому

      Please hold on. The depression can be a sign of healing as the toxins are being purged. It's temporary 💗 & when you get through it, you'll be able to see more clearly the glorious new day in your life ✨🕊️💐

  • @khanscombe619
    @khanscombe619 7 днів тому

    How to respond when they get mad ask why can’t you just agree with me?

  • @maryjacob-israel1341
    @maryjacob-israel1341 7 днів тому

    As soon as I heard about what happened to the brain, I felt damaged.

  • @MatthewAlvarenga-nh1jt
    @MatthewAlvarenga-nh1jt 8 днів тому

    Why? I had nothing but love. Still do.

  • @jackilynpyzocha662
    @jackilynpyzocha662 8 днів тому

    Dad would say that I "misinterpreted what he said". Not true.

  • @peaceindarkness.darknessis3494
    @peaceindarkness.darknessis3494 8 днів тому

    He cheated?!?! 🤯what an idiot! lol I’ve searched a lifetime thus far for your type.this truly amazes me that people lose genuinely wonderful people over and over

  • @EleanorMclean-ns1yl
    @EleanorMclean-ns1yl 8 днів тому

    Sometimes I have to remind myself that I am not in the room or having a conversation with my ex, but with my husband

  • @EleanorMclean-ns1yl
    @EleanorMclean-ns1yl 8 днів тому

    ❤️ Iam sorry youve been through all this . When I hear a certain noise I fill up with emotion and feel upset, I have to stop myself from getting very tearful. Another is when my husband cracks his fingers it goes right through me really unsettling and I start to go right back to when my ex did this. Last night I begged him not to do it near me.

  • @DawnShares
    @DawnShares 8 днів тому

    yes thank you

  • @King.Mathias.Chosen1
    @King.Mathias.Chosen1 9 днів тому

    Truth on truth

  • @EleanorMclean-ns1yl
    @EleanorMclean-ns1yl 9 днів тому

    Or I get a lot what’s wrong, have you hacked your thyroid meds yet? You know you get paranoid.

  • @EleanorMclean-ns1yl
    @EleanorMclean-ns1yl 9 днів тому

    Turning something around, ? You need help!’ There’s something seriously wrong with you!’ ‘I’m serious, I think there’s something seriously wrong with you!!’ You need to see a psychiatrist or something because iam telling you, there is absolutely bo line on that covid test it’s in your head!! I never said that!!’ When I absolutely am certain they did say it. You’re so sensitive!’ What’s wrong with you?’ Iam worried about you, I’m really worried about you?’. All the above and more

    • @EleanorMclean-ns1yl
      @EleanorMclean-ns1yl 9 днів тому

      These are most of the things that are said to me. Use to be a lot more unkind like, you’re mental crazy, Saying things then deny saying them, saying things a certain way tone then saying that it’s me being sensitive or critical if I challenge the way iam being spoken to. ‘

  • @elizabethday4509
    @elizabethday4509 9 днів тому

    Can not wait to receive my copy. 🎉

  • @newyorkgal30
    @newyorkgal30 10 днів тому

    Thank you

  • @newyorkgal30
    @newyorkgal30 10 днів тому

    I have felt exactly what your saying. And you were able to just calm me down.

  • @ViolaSchmitt
    @ViolaSchmitt 10 днів тому

    Thank you ❤

  • @lall7928
    @lall7928 11 днів тому

    These are basic ones...I had a narcissist come to me and say I need you to pretend like we are just friends and answer this question....so I do....than he gets mad and says I'm crazy because he says I'm lying and that I'm not being honest and Im lying???? Yes it that way for me now....what is the point of speaking up ....no matter what you say it will be deflected right back to you. Your feelings.just aren't valued..

  • @whittyliz9775
    @whittyliz9775 11 днів тому

    I needed to hear this, thank you 💕 I have a chronic pain disorder and being broken up with and kicked out of my home by him, truly devastated me. Even when I’m in the most pain I’ve ever experienced, I feel like I have to be up and doing something or like I’m forgetting to do something. I have honestly made the chronic pain worse by avoiding the rest.. I don’t think as many people would avoid it or feel guilty if they haven’t been shamed for relaxing in the past. It’s truly tough to heal when you don’t even feel like your worthy enough to rest your body lol. Always take care of yourself, no matter what it takes ❤

  • @CrackedConker
    @CrackedConker 11 днів тому

    Hag.

  • @King.Mathias.Chosen1
    @King.Mathias.Chosen1 12 днів тому

    Tell it toem girl 💯

  • @BugattiFlow
    @BugattiFlow 13 днів тому

    Oh shut it.. women display the most narcissistic qualities and end like 90% of relationship, but are always crying about narcissism 😂 You are the narcissist.

  • @wanjirunjoroge5914
    @wanjirunjoroge5914 14 днів тому

    Trauma bound

  • @viccas1916
    @viccas1916 14 днів тому

    It sounds like you still hurt by him leaving you

  • @mobiusmaximus586
    @mobiusmaximus586 14 днів тому

    Would it be possible to become a narcissist from narcissistic abuse?

  • @annafry9922
    @annafry9922 14 днів тому

    I am free now. I managed to pull my strength and leave after 18 years. The irony was that 3 months after he died with cancer. I was with him there. We were not married so I don't even benefit from his death. Starting all over with only experience to show for all the years. I feel scattered into million pieces. Not sure if I will pull through. I am so tired

    • @slinkyminx2010
      @slinkyminx2010 14 днів тому

      You will pull through, so many ways to heal the trauma. So many been through hell but will make it out❤

    • @annafry9922
      @annafry9922 14 днів тому

      @@slinkyminx2010 I hope so. Thank you for your kind words 🙏🏻💕

  • @m.jonesjones3845
    @m.jonesjones3845 14 днів тому

    I'm connected by the trauma with the narcissist even after being in hiding

  • @georgesontag2192
    @georgesontag2192 15 днів тому

    The one I always hear is " He is just a work friend and lonely body builder". Ok... sure honey.

  • @jackilynpyzocha662
    @jackilynpyzocha662 15 днів тому

    I am no -contact with my narcissist dad. He thinks the world ought to revolve around him. He's wrong!

  • @jackilynpyzocha662
    @jackilynpyzocha662 15 днів тому

    They don't want to hear the truth!

  • @peaceindarkness.darknessis3494
    @peaceindarkness.darknessis3494 15 днів тому

    I am utterly stuck in this disgusting trauma bond. It’s fresh I hope it begins to pass soon. Thanks for your time❤️

  • @biggmatt65
    @biggmatt65 16 днів тому

    Absolutely have new supply when "they" move on.